Friday, November 19, 2004

balik lagi ke jkt ... huhuuh Minal Aidin wAl Faidzin yak.... buat smua yg mampir kesini.. klo ada salah2 kata ya mohon dimaapkan :P

Topik kita kali ini masalah Married :P. napa gw angkad ini topik, karena ada yg ngajak / menyatakan siap buad saya nikahi :D lieur euy.. kumaha seh nikah teh??? ini mah kayak judul pelem... Buruan Nikahi Gue huhuhuh
dah sgini aja duluw.. biar penasaran *ngak juga seh sebenernya*
~ she's my life... she's not walking away from me... she's ready for me... APA ADANYA DAN ADA APANYA ~

Monday, April 26, 2004

Dah lama gw gawe ditempat itu. Dulu gw ngerasa enjoy banget. Full of enjoyment. Biarpon banyak kerjaan, biarpon ditegor, dinasehatin, bla bla ba; gw tetep enjoy. Team bener2 kompak. Gw gak keberatan jaga kasir, gw gak keberatan nyuci alat dapur, nyapu, ngepel, bersihin ini-itu. Tapi akhir2 ini semua itu ilang. Ngak ada lagi kepuasan batin. Dulu gw benerin kompi sampe mau bela2in begadang karena dari situ dapur gw en temen2 ngebul. Tanggung jawab gw musti benerin itu komputer berasa, dan kepuasan dari benerin itu komputer juga ada.

Dulu gw masi bisa jalan2, kumpul2 ma temen2 (lama & baru), etc. Dulu gw masi bisa nonton ke bioskop ampir seminggu sekali. Dulu gw masi bisa nyari sampingan tanpa ngelupain tanggung jawab gw di tempat gw kerja. Lagian.. sampingan gw juga gak terlalu serius gw kejer2 karena itu pure sampingan. Usaha sampingan gw juga gak jauh2 kok. Benerin komputer temen, tennant/penghuni apartemen yg tinggal diatas kepala gw, komputer tetangga (ITC & RUKO). Gw juga gak terlalu maksain diri. Klo gw ga sanggup ya gw bilang. So gw juga ga perna matok harga/ongkos jasa. Bukannya gw ga butuh duit. Buohong klo gw ga butuh duid. Tapi yg gw cari pertama itu kepercayaan dan kepuasan. Buktinya orang yg minta "ditengokin" komputernya tamba banyak.

-IMHO-
Sekarang, with new place of work and new kinda ppl. Kepuasan dan Kesenangan itu hilang. New position giving me too much pressure. Gw musti benerin sekian banyak peripheral dengan tenggat waktu. OK, perangkat itu gw cek, dan ternyata membutuhkan beberapa jenis komponen. So i told my superior officer that i need those kind of components. Then he said that i must wrote the whole thing down and giving him the exact amount of components that i need. Geez, did he ever count how much stuff he give me to check? OK, so i count how much components and wrote the thing down. Funny, after i gave him, he told me that it must be given to my colleague, so he will buy it for me. Funnier, my colleague told me that i must make a formal request, so he can send it to GM to get some money to buy the stuff. Unluckily, i'm bad at paperwork and i already told my colleague about it. So the components still on the market. (xixixixi)

Every morning, my colleague ring the phone downstair ask me to come. OK, gw kerja disana dan memang seharusnya gw ada disana. Tapi ya.. gitulah jeleknya gw. Can't work nicely if something/someone pushing me too hard without understanding and co-operation. I told him i need stuff to fix those thing. OK, separo emang bisa di "kanibal" karena banyak yg rusaknya beda. Tapi.. klo bahan buat dikanibal itu abis mo gimana? (pikiran jelek gw: gw kanibal juga ntar dianya. gw cabut tangan dia gw pasang di badan gw, so tangan gw ada 4. So semua kerjaan cepet beresna. xixixi)

Inilah jeleknya gw.. unek2 gw sulit buat disampe'in ke personnya. Why??? Karna gw juga ngerasa masi banyak kekurangan, dan gw juga masi mau kerja bantuin mreka. Emang seh, klo ga gw sampe'in mreka mungkin ngak bakal ngerti apa mau gw. Mungkin, dan mungkin. Ada temen kantor ato temen dari temen kantor gw yg mampir kesini, baca tulisan gw dan sampe'in ke temen kantor gw. Gw masi pengen kerja disitu klo masi dibolehin ma mreka.
Emang gaji gw gak seberapa, Jabatan/Posisi gw juga ga seberapa. Gw ngerasa digede'in disana, susah senang bareng (walau temen2 gw banyak yg dah gak gawe disitu lagi). Idealisme buta??? No Sir! gw cuma mo buktiin ke kembaran gw, klo kerja gak pindah2 itu juga bakal ada hasilna. Sedikit-sedikit, pelan-pelan, hasil jerih payah itu bakal dateng. Buktinya gw naik jadi Teknisi Pusat setelah dua setengah taon jadi Teknisi di Cabang.

Inilah sedikit unek2 yg akhir2 in jadi beban di otak gw. Posting gw emang jarang, ya karena jeleknya gw itu. Terlalu banyak disimpen :) Itu kali ye yg bikin badan gw kurus kering ceking kayak papan penggilesan :)

~Gnoti Sauton~ {Lupa}
~Shoot! Then Talk!~ {taken from the movie "Kill The Dutchman"}

Monday, April 12, 2004

13 April 3 tahun yg lalu

Masih teringat waktu pertama2 aku kerja.
Pagi2 dateng pakek pakean rapi.
Kemeja, clana bahan, spatu item (spatuna masi setia ampe skrg).
Tapi lama2 tetep aja balik ke stelan TugillZ DekillZ lantaran bongkar² muluw :)
Siap datang klo ditelpon :) {Co panggilan kali ye...}
Ditemani speda MTB item yg terus ilang entah kemana.
Banyak cerita, pengalaman, suka dan duka, lucu.
Bombing FunLove, Server Down, sampe telpon/interkom dari temen yg lagi di training di lantai 4 (Gaoc geblek pakek manggil orang jauh.. lha di lantai bawah aja ada yg Gila-nya).
Bakar ayam didepan warnet tiap malem minggu abis gajian. Teamwork, kekompakan, kebersamaan kita.. Phewww buanyak booo :)

Gaoc, Zemmpoel, Iyan, Jajankus, Ngarman, Agus, K-C, Ferry, I Miss Yo all FellaZ!!!

Wednesday, March 03, 2004

=-Contekan Hati-=
kuliah cuti lagi.. hiw hiw... pengen seh kuliah trus.. tapi.. expense terlalu gede... tapi ya apa mo dikata.. "resiko jabatan"... gw musti trima.. whatever it is :)
aslinya.. gw masi pengen kuliah. pengeeenn banged..

tapi...

Monday, January 12, 2004

~Another Chances~

Evryone deserve it. sometimes i saw some ppl hu didn't got their second chance. To rebuild their life, fixing their habits, removing addictions, etc.
So many things that makes person can't get it second chance. well i ain't talkin like a holy man cos i definetly not one of them. Forgive for my mistyping, cos i type (from now on) straight from the flashing in my mind. so if u feel like my log here is so weirdo, get outta hier!! i warn u. cos mind is a wonderful thing to twist :)

deadline chasing me. i must be able to make one server that meet the standard here. (pheww) exhosting, also i have another trouble back there where i was still an ordinary worker. {end of my real stuff, back to my mind.}

why do i talkin bout chances?! cos lastnite i was awaken my eyes catch the story on da tivi. an ADA (Assistant District Attourney) press charge on a gal who coincidentally was her little friend. She got a MD (mental disorder) called MD (Manic Depression). the ADA try to fix her, tryin to giv her a second chance. she talk to her friends mother, paying phone bill of the mother, buying AC, etc. but at last da gal runnin away again (the disease is the cause) the ADA saw her singin on da street broadway. She leave her there. {so what's the point gillz? It's there Broth/Sisth}

~what's the poor has that the rich one doesn't, and God fears?~