People Vs. TugillZ #1 (not People Vs. Larry Flint)

Ha Ha Ha Ha ...

Lagi iseng ngobrak-ngabrik game buang jutek (baca: NFSU-2), tiba tiba baca artikel soal NFSMW Vinyl Importing di http://www.nfsunlimited.net/ . en ternyata bisa juga dipakek buat NFSU-2 yg lagi gw mainken. yasud.. gw dl. eh.. dah gitu perlu tool lagi buad ngedit exported vinyl nya.. ketemulah di http://developer.nvidia.com/object/nv_texture_tools.html .

He he he..

Buad yg suka ramal meramal...

http://www.chinesefortunecalendar.com/

Poseng lah.. terlalu banyak peraturan/undang-undang/kebijakan baru dan aneh. Baik itu yg sedang, akan, dan sudah dibangun.
Di satu sisi hal itu memang perlu untuk mencegah hal-hal yg tidak diinginkan serta hal-hal yg diinginkan.
Di sisi lain.. Masih banyak hal-hal lain yg sebetulnya perlu lebih diperhatikan...

Gw jadi rada² curiga...
Adakah hal² tersebut diangkat untuk menutupi hal² lain yg sebetulnya lebih krusial?!
Adakah hal² tersebut dibahas untuk mencegah terungkitnya kembali hal-hal yg telah lalu?!

Pornografi, pornoaksi, polusi/pencemaran, korupsi, pendidikan, pekerjaan, moneter, hukum, hak azasi, listrik, air, BBM, sembako, informasi, teknologi, dll (dan lupa lagi).

ah.. kieu mereun mun jadi wakil rakyat teh mikirna nya.... kitu lain?! lain kitu?!

forgive me Lord.. for thou i've made a sin..
i've been abandoning, and cheating my own heart
but that's not my deepest sin..
i just let my heart empty..

routines makes it cold and i can't stop it
time move so fast and the chances seem so few
forgive me my heart.. it's all my fault
i let you frozen.. again

dear heart.. i hope u'll be alright
time and life is too precious to waste
once again.. forgive me

~sinner with no name~

Long time no see :)
i have nothing to say but

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I have no story to tell *for* now just plain simple missing of diz place.
thinking of making new one

You Have A Type B+ Personality

B+ You're a pro at going with the flow You love to kick back and take in everything life has to offer A total joy to be around, people crave your stability. While you're totally laid back, you can have bouts of hyperactivity. Get into a project you love, and you won't stop until it's done You're passionate - just selective about your passions

Do You Have a Type A Personality?

Blah.. kayak golongan darah.... :P

Pengacara

Terhitung medio akhir Desember 2004 gw jadi penganggur. Why??? too many reasons... I just don't want arguing with other peepz. Gw emang ada kesalahan, tapi gw juga gak smuanya salah.. It's all just about MISSCOMMUNICATION.
Kurangnya komunikasi, dan pendekatan. Namanya bawahan.. (versi gw) seganlah gw buat omong ke atasan, kalo atasan itu gak deket ma gw. Gw tau yg namanya atasan itu punya kesibukan tersendiri. Tapi di zaman gini githu lho.. so many ways to communicate.
Cut the crap, straight to the point. Deep inside my heart I disappointed. I owe so much.

~Rest In Peace My Dear GCM E-16 my Fourth place where i grow up in this Cyberworld~
I still can't redeem my debts to you.
dedicated to:
crew: jajankus, kupl3k, gaoc, armanexsia, kessy, sapto, zemmpoell, ian, ferry, wee2ks, and all who've been there.
user: bustart, bluesman, demitsquall, rifQ, lowstandart, iyas, aji, andre "FM2005", etc.
u all have space in my memories

You Are a Visionary Soul

You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness. Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connect to your soul. You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable. Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings. You have great vision and can be very insightful. In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself. Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend. You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer. Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

balik lagi ke jkt ... huhuuh Minal Aidin wAl Faidzin yak.... buat smua yg mampir kesini.. klo ada salah2 kata ya mohon dimaapkan :P

Topik kita kali ini masalah Married :P. napa gw angkad ini topik, karena ada yg ngajak / menyatakan siap buad saya nikahi :D lieur euy.. kumaha seh nikah teh??? ini mah kayak judul pelem... Buruan Nikahi Gue huhuhuh
dah sgini aja duluw.. biar penasaran *ngak juga seh sebenernya*
~ she's my life... she's not walking away from me... she's ready for me... APA ADANYA DAN ADA APANYA ~

Dah lama gw gawe ditempat itu. Dulu gw ngerasa enjoy banget. Full of enjoyment. Biarpon banyak kerjaan, biarpon ditegor, dinasehatin, bla bla ba; gw tetep enjoy. Team bener2 kompak. Gw gak keberatan jaga kasir, gw gak keberatan nyuci alat dapur, nyapu, ngepel, bersihin ini-itu. Tapi akhir2 ini semua itu ilang. Ngak ada lagi kepuasan batin. Dulu gw benerin kompi sampe mau bela2in begadang karena dari situ dapur gw en temen2 ngebul. Tanggung jawab gw musti benerin itu komputer berasa, dan kepuasan dari benerin itu komputer juga ada.

Dulu gw masi bisa jalan2, kumpul2 ma temen2 (lama & baru), etc. Dulu gw masi bisa nonton ke bioskop ampir seminggu sekali. Dulu gw masi bisa nyari sampingan tanpa ngelupain tanggung jawab gw di tempat gw kerja. Lagian.. sampingan gw juga gak terlalu serius gw kejer2 karena itu pure sampingan. Usaha sampingan gw juga gak jauh2 kok. Benerin komputer temen, tennant/penghuni apartemen yg tinggal diatas kepala gw, komputer tetangga (ITC & RUKO). Gw juga gak terlalu maksain diri. Klo gw ga sanggup ya gw bilang. So gw juga ga perna matok harga/ongkos jasa. Bukannya gw ga butuh duit. Buohong klo gw ga butuh duid. Tapi yg gw cari pertama itu kepercayaan dan kepuasan. Buktinya orang yg minta "ditengokin" komputernya tamba banyak.

-IMHO-
Sekarang, with new place of work and new kinda ppl. Kepuasan dan Kesenangan itu hilang. New position giving me too much pressure. Gw musti benerin sekian banyak peripheral dengan tenggat waktu. OK, perangkat itu gw cek, dan ternyata membutuhkan beberapa jenis komponen. So i told my superior officer that i need those kind of components. Then he said that i must wrote the whole thing down and giving him the exact amount of components that i need. Geez, did he ever count how much stuff he give me to check? OK, so i count how much components and wrote the thing down. Funny, after i gave him, he told me that it must be given to my colleague, so he will buy it for me. Funnier, my colleague told me that i must make a formal request, so he can send it to GM to get some money to buy the stuff. Unluckily, i'm bad at paperwork and i already told my colleague about it. So the components still on the market. (xixixixi)

Every morning, my colleague ring the phone downstair ask me to come. OK, gw kerja disana dan memang seharusnya gw ada disana. Tapi ya.. gitulah jeleknya gw. Can't work nicely if something/someone pushing me too hard without understanding and co-operation. I told him i need stuff to fix those thing. OK, separo emang bisa di "kanibal" karena banyak yg rusaknya beda. Tapi.. klo bahan buat dikanibal itu abis mo gimana? (pikiran jelek gw: gw kanibal juga ntar dianya. gw cabut tangan dia gw pasang di badan gw, so tangan gw ada 4. So semua kerjaan cepet beresna. xixixi)

Inilah jeleknya gw.. unek2 gw sulit buat disampe'in ke personnya. Why??? Karna gw juga ngerasa masi banyak kekurangan, dan gw juga masi mau kerja bantuin mreka. Emang seh, klo ga gw sampe'in mreka mungkin ngak bakal ngerti apa mau gw. Mungkin, dan mungkin. Ada temen kantor ato temen dari temen kantor gw yg mampir kesini, baca tulisan gw dan sampe'in ke temen kantor gw. Gw masi pengen kerja disitu klo masi dibolehin ma mreka.
Emang gaji gw gak seberapa, Jabatan/Posisi gw juga ga seberapa. Gw ngerasa digede'in disana, susah senang bareng (walau temen2 gw banyak yg dah gak gawe disitu lagi). Idealisme buta??? No Sir! gw cuma mo buktiin ke kembaran gw, klo kerja gak pindah2 itu juga bakal ada hasilna. Sedikit-sedikit, pelan-pelan, hasil jerih payah itu bakal dateng. Buktinya gw naik jadi Teknisi Pusat setelah dua setengah taon jadi Teknisi di Cabang.

Inilah sedikit unek2 yg akhir2 in jadi beban di otak gw. Posting gw emang jarang, ya karena jeleknya gw itu. Terlalu banyak disimpen :) Itu kali ye yg bikin badan gw kurus kering ceking kayak papan penggilesan :)

~Gnoti Sauton~ {Lupa}
~Shoot! Then Talk!~ {taken from the movie "Kill The Dutchman"}

13 April 3 tahun yg lalu

Masih teringat waktu pertama2 aku kerja.
Pagi2 dateng pakek pakean rapi.
Kemeja, clana bahan, spatu item (spatuna masi setia ampe skrg).
Tapi lama2 tetep aja balik ke stelan TugillZ DekillZ lantaran bongkar² muluw :)
Siap datang klo ditelpon :) {Co panggilan kali ye...}
Ditemani speda MTB item yg terus ilang entah kemana.
Banyak cerita, pengalaman, suka dan duka, lucu.
Bombing FunLove, Server Down, sampe telpon/interkom dari temen yg lagi di training di lantai 4 (Gaoc geblek pakek manggil orang jauh.. lha di lantai bawah aja ada yg Gila-nya).
Bakar ayam didepan warnet tiap malem minggu abis gajian. Teamwork, kekompakan, kebersamaan kita.. Phewww buanyak booo :)

Gaoc, Zemmpoel, Iyan, Jajankus, Ngarman, Agus, K-C, Ferry, I Miss Yo all FellaZ!!!

=-Contekan Hati-=
kuliah cuti lagi.. hiw hiw... pengen seh kuliah trus.. tapi.. expense terlalu gede... tapi ya apa mo dikata.. "resiko jabatan"... gw musti trima.. whatever it is :)
aslinya.. gw masi pengen kuliah. pengeeenn banged..

tapi...

~Another Chances~

Evryone deserve it. sometimes i saw some ppl hu didn't got their second chance. To rebuild their life, fixing their habits, removing addictions, etc.
So many things that makes person can't get it second chance. well i ain't talkin like a holy man cos i definetly not one of them. Forgive for my mistyping, cos i type (from now on) straight from the flashing in my mind. so if u feel like my log here is so weirdo, get outta hier!! i warn u. cos mind is a wonderful thing to twist :)

deadline chasing me. i must be able to make one server that meet the standard here. (pheww) exhosting, also i have another trouble back there where i was still an ordinary worker. {end of my real stuff, back to my mind.}

why do i talkin bout chances?! cos lastnite i was awaken my eyes catch the story on da tivi. an ADA (Assistant District Attourney) press charge on a gal who coincidentally was her little friend. She got a MD (mental disorder) called MD (Manic Depression). the ADA try to fix her, tryin to giv her a second chance. she talk to her friends mother, paying phone bill of the mother, buying AC, etc. but at last da gal runnin away again (the disease is the cause) the ADA saw her singin on da street broadway. She leave her there. {so what's the point gillz? It's there Broth/Sisth}

~what's the poor has that the rich one doesn't, and God fears?~

~About my workZ~
Feel so bored.. dunno why i felt this.. emptiness.. miserable.. unconfidence..
Firstly coz da connection goes so so slo`. They thought the root of the problem comes from my area. We do check and recheck.. i found something weird, then i want to check from the logs. When i check the log.. i found something weird.. the size of the log has over 1.5 gigs (WoW!!!). I dunno what to do.. should i erase it?? (but it contains data i want to see). I want to split them into small size so i can track/trace the source of the laggy thingie that makes my connection run like an erudite worm. So i left it. Eventhough.. deep inside me want to make the connection better.. but still.. i don't know must be how *my pren style*

~About Ramadhan Peduli Kasih bersama M3-Community~
Well.. mungkin ini salah satu distraksi dari kejenuhanku di tempad kerja. Ditembak dengan sukses jadi Sie Keamanan (Beu!!!), sesudah itu.. ditembak pulak suru bikin simbolis buat penyerahan sumbangan.. padahal D-Day-nya tuw besok... Gilak pan!!! tapi ya dengan berbagai cara (begadang dah pasti.. namanya jg NightCrawlerZ *wink!*) akhirnya simbolis itu jadi. Gw ikutin itu acara dengan mata dah diganjel pakek biji korek api, berikut semangat yg sudah dibakar lagi (karena nyaris padam oleh ngantuk). Phewww.. sukses juga acaranya. Disana aku merasa suatu hal yg lain daripada yg lain. Masih ada yg lebi susah dari gw, masi ada yg lebi sengsara dari gw. Tapi mereka jalani semua itu apa adanya dan ada apanya. They still survive.. they still can face it, can live with it, an they struggle with it.
Melihat mereka.. ternyata aku masih harus lebih banyak belajar lagi..
^Thx To All Participants^ _Keep The Faith - Bon Jovi_


Your element is Air. You are an artistic person
with a unique sense of style. You are
intelligent; although prone to wonder in
thought which, prevents you from paying full
attention to most things, constantly active and
most likely like to sing. Constantly moving the
air is a force of nature. One moment you can be
a breeze the next a tornado.


What's your element
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obsessive compulsive


Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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^_* Walah mak.. sebegitunyakah kelainanku?!?! *_^

... Time went by.. as i write your name in the sky ...

Lirik itu mengiringi tarian jariku diatas keyboard. Gak terasa.. 3 Ramadhan aku jalani diluar kota kelahiranku... Aku hanya bisa tersenyum.. karena itu terjadi begitu saja. Sejak diterimanya aku bekerja di sebuah warnet.. dari situ aku jadi perantau (beu...)

Jariku masi menari... Mengisi lembaran2 blog dengan cerita2 yg kadang berisi makian, pujian, kehampaan, penyesalan, atau hanya sekedar memuaskan keinginan jariku untuk menari diatas keyboard.

Hari ini gw abis nonton Once Upon A Time in Mexico ma dia. Ceritanya pengen liad aksi Carolina (Salma Hayek) eh.. ngak tawunya di pelem ini dia sudah dinyatakan MamvoZ. hiks... padahal aku pengen liad seksehnya dia lagi lhooo *eHEmm!*. Yg bikin gw nyengir.. pas 'El Mariachi' kissing bayinya yg masi di perud Carolina. Asekk, Tobb, Gentle Abizzz!! *hehehe...* Aksinya Joni Depp jg bagus.. apalagi pas matanya dah ilang... *salud lagih* Tapi2.. yg jadi cewek antagonisnya sapa yah... *wink* geulis oge ternyatah... cari aah.. di opisial sitenyah *mupeng abiz*. dah dulu ah.. masi chatt neh.. mau cek cenel2 lama.. takut2 drop lebar euy.. :))

wishlist: DigiCam & MoBo. *gpp kan.. bentar lagi dapet THR* ~hope so~

Dah lama ya aku gak ngotorin tempat ini... tempatku sendiri.. dimana aku bisa berkata-kata semauku, memaki-maki (walau berupa kiasan) saenak udelku, tertawa berbahak-bahak, atau... menangis berderai huruf2 yg menjadi bait kata2.

Menengok Kebelakang
Disana ada jejak langkahku yg semakin lama semakin panjang.
Tak terasa sang waktu yg telah kulaluipun semakin panjang.
Kutertunduk
Kulihat kakiku yg telah membawaku sejauh ini
Kaki yg kini tak sama panjang telah memberiku banyak kisah, sahabat, ilmu dan semua ini
Kaki yg tak pernah mengeluh walau kini ia tak sama panjang.
Kuangkat daguku
Mataku menatap jalang
Batinku masih haus pengalaman
Batinku masih belum jernih
Hatiku masih gundah gulana
Hatiku masih bertanya-tanya :
Arti Hidup dan Kehidupan yg kini tengah berjalan...
Menerima Apa adanya dan Ada apanya...
Orang bijak dan Orang gila banyak berujar-ujar
Orang pintar dan Orang bodoh banyak bercerita
Aku berkata "Aku tak mau Menindas, Ditindas dan Tertindas"
Aku berkata "Dua Sisi Mata Uang"
... Lalu aku menangis ...

~dibalik batu, tak selamanya ada udang~
Korban Indoktrinasi

Kucoba berkaca...
Pada jejak yang ada...
Ternyata aku sudah tertinggal...
BAHKAN JAUH TERTINGGAL!!!

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Mulai senin kemaren dah di pusat.. (4-8-03) Project aku disuruh bikin forum. Kalo layak tayang, bakal dipajang di webservernya kuantor akuw :) hihihih blajar duluw deh aku.. eh eh.. klo aku ntar2 banyak tanya... jgn ragu2 kasi jawaban yak... :) kalo dipajang ntar kan keren... sapa tawu bisa aku selipin gambar "Kutu" di sana :) Hidup KUTU BLOG yg pada BF (Banci Foto) kekekekek banyak yg tertipu dengan istilah BF... orang mikirnya pastiii deh jorok muluw... padahal kan maksut aku tuw Banci Fotoo..... :D

MOD: senang, sedih, campur baur ma yg lain.

Senin ini aku mulai naik posisi, pindah ke Kantor Pusat. Kelihatannya enak ya.. di Pusat.. (namanya juga Pusat) hihihi tauklah kita liat aja nanteh... :)
Sedih... kawan aku pergi buad selamanya Kamis pagi kemarin (31-7-2003 10.00). Gak ada kabar sama skali.. dari kawan2.. Kaget aku pas masuk mIRC liat topik segede alaihim gambreng... dan gak di satu cenel pulak.
beberapa nick lama aku dah drop.. biarlah.. selama itu bukan nick2 tertentu..

About Death
You would know the secret of death.
But how shall you find it unless you seek it in the heart of life?
The owl whose night-bound eyes are blind unto the day cannot unveil the mystery of light.
If you would indeed behold the spirit of death, open your heart wide unto the body of life.
For life and death are one, even as the river and the sea are one.
In the depth of your hopes and desires lies your silent knowledge of the beyond;
And like seeds dreaming beneath the snow your heart dreams of spring.
Trust the dreams, for in them is hidden the gate to eternity.
Your fear of death is but the trembling of the shepherd when he stands before the king whose hand is to be laid upon him in honour.
Is the sheered not joyful beneath his trembling, that he shall wear the mark of the king?
Yet is he not more mindful of his trembling?
For what is it to die but to stand naked in the wind and to melt into the sun?
And what is to cease breathing, but to free the breath from its restless tides, that it may rise and expand and seek God unencumbered?
Only when you drink form the river of silence shall you indeed sing.
And when you have reached the mountain top, then you shall begin to climb.
And when the earth shall claim your limbs, then shall you truly dance.
In Memoriam... wongedan aka. madya. May Your Soul Rest In Peace.